Like the title says, enough is enough right now.
Present State of Being
Emotionally, everyone in the system feels happy, grounded, steady, and excited about our new home.
Spiritually, we all feel reflective and a little stressed out as bits and pieces of recent experiences add perspective to confusing past memories of family time. And also that some friends turn out to be somewhat different than expected.
Physically, all tired and experiencing backlash – physical panic attacks, migraines, back pain, and exhaustion to go with nausea and cramps from that time of the month – from all of the changes.
I almost fell asleep without posting today
Plans for this week and two weeks into the future
So the next few weeks will feel like Survival Mode again – lots of self care; lots of self-soothing; coping with backlash and physical panic attacks; more sleep and less activity.
I have a resource post coming up this month, but not sure when. Need to find some resources to link to for tapping. Maybe YouTube videos this time? Either way, I want to try out some of the tutorials before sharing here.
Also, some quick reminders:
Sometimes falling into old patterns is okay – many times it happens as part of an automatic defense mechanism without awareness until the experience is finished. Other times, it takes a safe person (friend, therapist, loved one, significant other) to point out what is happening.
As my previous therapist and a friend later pointed out, sometimes our subconscious self is more aware of the reality of a situation than the conscious self and takes steps to protect everyone – i.e. implementing the automatic defense mechanisms.
Therapy does not make a person more selfish or self-centered. Therapy encourages the individual or group to open up and be more authentic while also learning strategies to cope with internal struggles in healthy safe ways. That includes “I” statements, being assertive, setting boundaries, and changing.
Finally, change scares a lot of people especially when they are struggling with their own demons and not happy when a pattern changes. If someone accuses you of a negative behavior or something similar unexpectedly, please remember that individual might be triggered by the changes and projecting her or his fears on to you without realizing it.
Takes a lot of resilience and strength to maintain your own boundaries during the conversation and then reflect on the experience to process it properly.
You didn’t do anything wrong.
You are growing, changing, and becoming more you.
It’s something I have to remind myself of often this month. I hope the reminder helps you stay strong too.
Thanks for reading.