This weekend is a holiday weekend in the USA. That means we have a 3 day weekend to celebrate Labor Day.
Not sure about any of you but most major holidays bring about some anxiety, panic attacks, flashbacks, hyper-vigilance, and so on. Triggers are everywhere, and a lot of places don’t feel safe. I worry about what could or will happen if I interact with people when I feel this way.
Staying home feels right unless there is something I HAVE TO do that requires leaving. Delivery works best too since it helps me meet my self care needs without causing anxiety or panic attacks.
Depression is something that comes and goes in waves. Last month, it took over for quite a few weeks as I struggled to process so many changes and cope with flashbacks. Funny how (for me at least) working through anger and shame eases the feelings of depression in my mind/body/spirit.
At times like this (read almost any anniversary), Self Care and Self Soothing are super important to maintain, increase, start again, continue, or follow up on – depends on where you are in the moment – so that the symptoms and scary stuff don’t take over as easily.
So I wish you all a safe, healthy, relaxing weekend full of sleep/rest, self care, and positive energy.
p.s. Yes there is a post going up tomorrow. This is a bonus for all of us 🙂
A quick post tonight. Lots going on and not much to share at the moment – still processing.
Last week, I went back to school for the first time in over 10 years. It’s part of my graduate school application to help me and the admissions board decide if I should be accepted into the program this fall.
I have 5 more classes to sit in on over the next two weeks. During the first class, I stayed mostly clearheaded and did not get overwhelmed. But I did react to the loud noise/talking when students finished their work early and waited for the rest to finish. Also, I discovered that I have to move around in my seat, sitting still in a classroom made my body hurt. Finally, I have to be wary of my hyper-vigilance and try to relax instead.
The day after I sat in on a class, I experienced some confusion during reflection time. The confusion led to anxiety because I wasn’t sure I had the coping tools available to help with these “new” experiences. A call to the hotline and a conversation with the counselor helped me realize I had plenty of applicable coping strategies and techniques in my toolbox. I just had to figure out which ones worked or didn’t work and how to apply them in this new setting.
My list so far:
- acupressure for pain management
- water or a drink for grounding
- bracelet to play with
- deep breathing or “tree” exercise in my chair
- Chocolate or something similar for taste grounding
- magic bag??
- extra battery/charger for my phone
What is on your list?
hanks for reading
Not much to say except this week we are all fighting.
The anxiety is strong. So many triggers with new people invading our space at work. So many ways to give in amd not go to work this week. So many reasons to get up and fight another day – deadlines, seeing friends, accomplishing goals, not wanting to give in to the fear.
Sometimes one of us will signal break time. Then we go out and walk for a bit. Or go to the restroom for quiet. Maybe walk down to the lobby and talk with the guard on duty. And then get back to work.
Once in a while I feel like running, but can’t leave the desk. Food, juice or sour drink, chocolate, music, games, or a book help there. But no one can help us feel the anxiety that comes from tok many people and too much movement and too much noise.
Yeah, I am nof the best writer. And I don’t proofread either. But mo one else wanted to post anything using the phone app. Our personal computer got donated. The work one is at the office. And will stay until we bring it home tomorrow – incentive for going into the office.
Thanks for reading.