This could also go under life-changing moments, but I prefer it here.
Not a long post because still processing and learning to use coping strategies effectively.
Feeling safe can change perspectives and long-held beliefs about oneself and one’s relationships with others.
Recovering memories from body and mind; then piecing them together with help from alters via dreams and nightmares.
Interacting with the outside world more as my real self and with less dissociative experiences even in high stress situations.
Allowing family back into my life on a limited basis; and through those blood relations, my parents and sibling are back too.
Fourth (and last on this list) Change
The beginnings of an integration where all alters work together as a single unit and allow our body to heal/become/look the way it’s supposed to look based on genetics and a higher power.
What does this mean?
I feel confident and able enough to protect myself from anything my parents or younger sibling might try.
The danger is not so much from my parents as from acquaintances and community members whose identities I don’t remember except in nightmares.
My biggest challenges have to do with facing my fears and triggers without using dissociation as my automatic coping strategy.
I am in a new phase of recovery. I don’t have any reference points, past experience, or internal guides to start with. My go-to strategies are dissociate and avoid. They don’t work anymore.
But something must be going right. I’m still alive and sane.
Step by step. Moment by moment.
Thanks for reading.